Happily Married & Heartbroken

I'm realizing how naive it was of me to think heartbreak would end when I got married. It wasn't that I thought all my problems would go away, but I did think my heart would stop breaking.

My heart has felt broken lately, and in addition to hurting, it's gotten me thinking about what heartbreak really is. What was it when I was dating? Hope tested. Relationships damaged. Inability to move forward with life, due to circumstances outside my control. 

None of these is inherently connected to romance, and it speaks again to how much I defined my early identity by my relationship status. Why did I do that? So much wasted energy. 

Lately my hope feels tested. I've had relationships be damaged. I feel stuck in life. 

I am happily married, and I'm heartbroken. Go figure.